Week 4: A family member
I’ve been looking forward to this week so that I can write about the newest addition to my family, Zara. As I said last week I am incredibly fortunate to have a close family and I really could write a post about why I’m grateful for every member of my family but for now, I’ll focus on Zara.
Zara Emily Cook was born on 20th November 2015 so is just over 9 weeks old. She is honestly the best thing in the world. I’m not denying that she is hard work! She is! She is definitely not the most relaxed baby I’ve ever met but she is inquisitive and smiley and already loves music. She isn’t a great fan of sleeping during the day but she’s busy taking in the world around her.
I am so grateful for her and my mind is blown every time I think about the fact that she wasn’t here…we didn’t know anything about her and now she is here! We made her….well, God did. We didn’t know and still don’t really know who she is going to grow up to be, what she will like and what she will do with her life but God does. She is fearfully and wonderfully made.
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
I was just watching her sleep and staring at her little eyebrows. How does the hair know to grow there and not anywhere else? She is so perfectly formed!
I am guilty of posting far too many photos of Zara on Instagram and Facebook and painting a beautiful picture of life with her but I’m not going be someone that only talks about the good bits of motherhood. If I genuinely documented a day with Zara there would be many photos of her crying when I don’t really know why, photos of me rocking her to sleep whilst blaring out white noise even though I vow to let her self settle next time and maybe even photos of me changing her clothes, my clothes and anything else we were sitting near because she’s been horrendously sick. Being a mum and the massive changes that brought definitely took me some time to get used to and I will admit there have been times when I didn’t feel all that grateful for her. However, the joy I portray in my Instagram and Facebook photos is real. She is amazing and I am so thankful for the privilege of being her mum.